My Mother

I don’t know why this is so difficult for me to write about my mother this morning. Maybe it’s because I have been looking though photo albums, shop looking for photos to put in my Mother’s Day post. I have not had tears for a while, but this morning there are many.

I know I am so blessed to still have her, and it seems like only yesterday that we were talking on the phone. Some years seem to be missing though. Where did they all go? The dementia has taken most of her personality away. Her beautiful spirit has gone, but her love remains. I’ll miss not being able to have her at my house tomorrow, with all the family around the dinner table, so much has changed over the years. I miss preparing a Mother’s Day dinner for her, and for my mother-in-law too, who passed away 3 years ago from Alzheimer’s at the age of 88.

When you’re young you never think about not having your parents around. You take for granted that they’re just there, you can see them whenever you want. You can pick up the phone and give them a call whenever you feel like it.

I miss my mother’s beautiful spirit, her love of life. I miss the way she used to hug me, and how she would always say, “you’re my little, girl”, and I would always say, “you’re my little mommy”. She is so petite. I am much taller, taking after my dad’s side of the family.

I always appreciate hearing from those of you, asking how she is, and sharing your stories of your mother with me. She is still doing the best she can, bless her heart. She’s not ready to give up yet, she is something else, that mother of mine. There still seems to be some of that beautiful spirit left, and God willing, she’ll celebrate her 93rd birthday June 29th.

I can’t wait to see her tomorrow, to give her a big hug and say, “you’re my little mommy, Happy Mother’s Day. I love you”.


4 Responses to “My Mother”

  1. Joan Says:

    Carole, I love hearing stories about your mom and seeing pictures of the two of you in times past. My mom would have been 93 on May 26 and I miss her every day. As you said, you think you will have them forever.
    Thanks for sharing your thoughts on Mother’s Day. I enjoy your blog very much.
    Best regards,

  2. carolemurals Says:

    Thank you Joan. I am sorry that you mother passed away. Our mother’s birthdays are close. My mother was born on June 29, 1918.
    I am so glad to know you are out there enjoying reading my blog. I appreciate that.

  3. Karen Says:

    I am just catching up on my blog reading, and just wanted to send a hug!
    this was another close to home post- as you may remember, we are going thru the same thing with our moms. We had a lovely day with mine- she was “spot on” last Sunday much to my delight. She even remembered who my son was and enjoyed the very small family gathering (hubby, myself, son, DIL and mom’s darling little great grandson). She does so much better in small settings and even though she asked the same questions over and over again, we all loved having her with us and being with her. We need to cherish these times. I love sharing your time with your mom, and the photos were wonderful. I’ve been going thru photo albums that belonged to mine and the memories the photos bring up are all so delightful.

  4. carolemurals Says:

    Hi Karen. Thank you for this comment. It sometimes helps to know that we are not alone. There are so many people out there sharing the same heart breaking thing, a loved one with dementia or Alzheimers. I am glad you had such a nice mother’s day with you mother. Taking photos, at the time, you don’t realize how meaningful they become. They’re bitter sweet but irreplaceable treasures.

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