I don’t know why this is so difficult for me to write about my mother this morning. Maybe it’s because I have been looking though photo albums, shop looking for photos to put in my Mother’s Day post. I have not had tears for a while, but this morning there are many.
I know I am so blessed to still have her, and it seems like only yesterday that we were talking on the phone. Some years seem to be missing though. Where did they all go? The dementia has taken most of her personality away. Her beautiful spirit has gone, but her love remains. I’ll miss not being able to have her at my house tomorrow, with all the family around the dinner table, so much has changed over the years. I miss preparing a Mother’s Day dinner for her, and for my mother-in-law too, who passed away 3 years ago from Alzheimer’s at the age of 88.
When you’re young you never think about not having your parents around. You take for granted that they’re just there, you can see them whenever you want. You can pick up the phone and give them a call whenever you feel like it.
I miss my mother’s beautiful spirit, her love of life. I miss the way she used to hug me, and how she would always say, “you’re my little, girl”, and I would always say, “you’re my little mommy”. She is so petite. I am much taller, taking after my dad’s side of the family.
I always appreciate hearing from those of you, asking how she is, and sharing your stories of your mother with me. She is still doing the best she can, bless her heart. She’s not ready to give up yet, she is something else, that mother of mine. There still seems to be some of that beautiful spirit left, and God willing, she’ll celebrate her 93rd birthday June 29th.
I can’t wait to see her tomorrow, to give her a big hug and say, “you’re my little mommy, Happy Mother’s Day. I love you”.
HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY